Hey Friends,

The best conversations are the ones over good pizza. I had a nice conversation with a friend when the following quote came up by Idries Shah:
“Enlightenment must come Little by little otherwise it would overwhelm”
I immediately thought of a cool anecdote I remember reading from Dr. Nurbakhsh’s Jesus in the Eyes of the Sufis.

As Jesus was traveling across a plain he saw a man who had made a retreat for himself there. it was secluded haunt with running natural spring and an oratory for prayer and it was surrounded by green shrubbery.
My dear god fearing ascetic Jesus addressed the man, why do you seclude yourself so?’Devotion has been my lifelong labor the man replied but my one overwhelming desires has still not been granted by god. “And what is that?” Jesus inquired. “To drink one draught of Divine Love confessed the ascetic. Jesus prayed that his desire be gratified then rose and continued on his way, it was granted by God’s grace.
Once again in the course of his wondering Jesus happened to pass by the same sport and saw that the retreat was in shambles and the sand had blown over it. The oasis has dried up and the man’s prayer niche has crumbled to pieces
O Lord Jesus petitioned where has this man gone How as this become ruined like this? Explain this tragedy to me. You will find his him on a certain mountaintop, God revealed to Jesus, himself a mountain of grief from head to foot.
Finding the mountain, Jesus saw the man with his lips all shriveled and his face pale and parched. Jesus was dismayed and astounded; the man appeared like a living course. His hair was crackling with anguish and the desert dust played freely over his face he was caked with dirt and blood; his eyes seemed like bottomless pits. When Jesus hailed in with greetings of peace he received no salutation in reply.
Jesus was then confided this revelation by God: “Such was his own entreaty. He desired an atom of love When I gave it to him he gave up everything. He ceased to care about himself. He was obliterated became utterly helpless. Had I poured one atom more of My Glory upon him he would have been shattered into a 1000 pieces.
An atom even, in Love, is too much;
Conceit in Love is unbefitting
Besides Love itself
Whatever else subsists, is
Like an idol temple
In the Ka’ba
When alien names from the heart
Are extirpated, the veils
From the Loved Ones visage are raised
I noticed an interesting mentality, maybe you can say it’s the Puritanical mentality that has been with America since its inception. The mentality is that the harder one works the better and quicker are ones results. There is a direct correlation between hard work and success. When there is a new disease or problem facing our country, our first impulse is to through money at it. The more money we through at it the more people will work on it the quicker an answer will be found.
Many times in my own search and I am sure to some extent even now as I feel like only a child on the path, the same mentality persists. I used to think that more meditation, more service more doing good stuff will give me more results, bring me closer to my goal. From what I have learned once this mentality takes root it’s time to revamp one’s goals. Why?
There are no goals on the path, nothing to aspire to just total and complete submission or subservience to the greater reality both manifest and unmanifest. We have in mind what our results will look like. Our mind’s approximation of results and what the results really are rather different things even if they look similar initially. Also in a way to me it becomes a sort of bribe. I will be nice to my neighbor not because I have mercy and compassion for him, and the trials life has put him too but because if I do it enough times I will go to heaven and eat seedless grapes and tiramisu. (I don’t know what’s on the menu there; I don’t have that flyer at my desk only for Happy Gardens Chinese takeout.)
I have come to see things a bit different since those days. If the aspirant does meditation for a gain even if it is a spiritual gain they are deluding themselves. We are all especially me good at deluding ourselves. Until calamity comes and makes us take a step back and examine our motives. We work and work with no expectation, not caring to know are we there yet what there looks like, what are the significance of each action. We focus on the present and by grace we arrive. The way I see it in my head we can’t get anywhere really without that Grace. Check out these words from Llewellyn Vaughan Lee on Grace the master of the Naqshbandi-Mujaddidiyya order:
But the core of the path lies in the relationship with the teacher, suhbat; it is through this relationship that the transmission of the lineage and the grace are given, and without it there can be no inner transformation and no journey……But grace is the cornerstone of every Sufi lineage, of any company of the lovers of God. Stepping onto the path, we step into the grace of a spiritual tradition, the power of love that is given for the work that needs to be done. Without it nothing real can happen on the path. As Rumi tells us, through our own effort we cannot even reach the first way station. It is through grace that the miracle of transformation happens; it is grace that opens human beings to the infinite preciousness of God’s limitless love, which is so easily hidden even though it is always present. And grace by its very nature is a gift. It flows from heart to heart in a transmission of love, and no effort is required. It can be very difficult for Americans to stop striving and acknowledge dependence upon something beyond the reach of their effort or will or even their understanding.
The best analogy to me is that of planting a seed. All of us have done it at one time or another. We have to buy the right type of soil and provide it with all the right nutrient (water and fertilizer for the seed to grow in). The water and fertilizers are our spiritual practices with prepare the heart to be the throne of The Soul in which is our own soul. Once we plant the seed they all grow and sprout on terms which are beyond us, beyond our control. Each seed has a particular time place and circumstance under which it will sprout, the more nutrients and water we put in the soul, the more we might be harming the seed.
That’s grace to me the finally awakening, the final stirring, the creative spark that we have no control over. What do you think? It would be nice to her your thoughts. I leave you with two quotes. One from Sufi al Karaz with comentaryby Llewellyn Vaughan-Lee and a poem from Rumi:
“Whoever believes he can reach God by his own efforts toils in vain; whoever believes he can reach God without effort is merely a traveler on the road of intent.” To step onto the path in which we must acknowledge our utter helplessness and dependence upon grace while still making every effort on our own is to enter a world of paradox and mystery which throws the wayfarer beyond the familiarity and security of his rational understanding, and this is not easy for people who have been so deeply conditioned by our powerful Western rational tradition.

SEEDS AND RAIN
The mystery of action: We are seeds.
You are rain. A dear stain,
our seed coverings decay.
You mix with what is inside,
and a toast to the new begins:
A divine blade, the keen edge
of now. Now rest, for the soul
slides over these eyes, as Shams
Tabriz covers Shams Tabriz.
-Dave
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