My Caravan of Dream

Someone had asked me, “How has everything that has happened in the last few months changed you?” Yesterday’s post [http://caravanofdreams.wordpress.com/2009/01/11/happy-new-year-everyone-trying-to-get-back-into-the-groove-of-blogging-1] was an initial answer. Today I came across something from the Sufi Order International that got me thinking. Let me paste it for you below before I go on.

There is a stage of evolution in one’s life when every question is answered by the life around him. For every thought of a sage, everything becomes an accommodation to help it to resound, and in this resonance there is an answer. In point of fact the answer is in the question itself. The answer wells up from the depth of all existence, like the sound of a bell being struck, or the splash of water, or the crackle of the firecracker: each reveals its condition when struck, like the knock on the door. The first sign one notices after the awakening of the soul is that one begins to see from two points of view. One begins to see the right of the wrong and the wrong of the right. In failure one will not feel such disappointment, and in success not such a great joy. In adverse conditions one will not be so dejected, in favorable conditions not so conceited. One begins to see that everything is reflected in its opposite. In this way one rises above logic, which then begins to appear as an elementary knowledge. It is a kind of double view of things. And when one has reached this, then reason has made way for higher reasoning. No doubt one’s language will become gibberish to others; people will not understand it. To some it will be too simple, to others too subtle.

I can’t tell what that stage is or if I am there, but I can tell you this. There came a point for me where I felt like I didnt know anything. Not like my degrees my useless, rather I felt that  I really didnt know what I was seeing or where to go from here.

Normally  I have a set routine, I have a comfort zones. I have activities that I have been doing by habit to save me time supposedly. Then one day I asked my self why am I doing this (I forget what it was) What is the real reason behind some of my actions?  I couldnt find any substantial reason. Then I had to ask myself what is the next step in my life? I was completely clueless for the first time in my life.

I think that at this point maybe one can really attempt to submit to God/the higher power.  I cannot see submission without perplexity. What I mean by perplexity is the imability for the mind to order and classify information according to its usual schemata. Which as I have seen is when life starts to be lived from The Heart.

I maybe be abolutely wrong but I have noticed that there are a lot of questions I dont need to ask as soon as I verbalize something in thought I am shown an answer. No angels singing or rose petals raining down just there in the course of the day itself, is the answer.

I feel that the more in the present I am in the more I can notice in real time the answers life has given to my questions. Its impossible to explain this language, it seems so personal and yet real.

What do you think? Any thoughts on this plase share

Dave